the mystery of love..

At office when we were all chatting around , suddenly kak su asked edy how old he would be next year.

I interrupted," 25.."

Edy,"eyh 24 la..liza yang 25..eyh dah tua tu 25..kena kawen cepat2.."

me,"............."

usually when people asked me when i will get married, i will answer, "akhir tahun..cuma tahun je tak tau bila.."

brilliant isnt it? muahahaha..

but lately in the office, marriage and love became the main topic when we were chatting to let go some burden of work pressure..

like yesterday, kak su asked me or more like saying that she's wondering how's the feeling of broken heart or in simple word, 'putus cinta' since she were in loved once and get married to his one and only boyfriend..

and like her, only that i'm not married yet, i never experienced 'putus cinta'..but the feeling of being rejected because another person doesnt know the feelings, who doesnt experience it right..hehe

so both of us interviewed everyone in the office how's the feeling..eceh interviewed..budget pengacara ke apa..hehe

Person 1 ," saya putus cinta relaks je..cam dah putus, putuslah..takde nak meraung2 ke.."

k.su,"tapi dah sayang takkan lah takde sedih ke apa...ni mesti sebab person 1 yang tinggalkan diaorg.."

"sedihlah..cuma takdelah rasa sedih sangat2 ke...aah..banyaknya saya yang putus dengan diaorg.."

my reaction, "patutlah..."

Person 2 , "uih.. dulu kalau putus cinta seminggu menangis..memang seminggu jelah..lepas tu, takde, cari lain..tapi memang seminggu tu, bangun tidur menangis, nak tidur menangis..buat apa2 pon menangis..tapi takdela mandi tak basah makan tak lalu..makan berkali2 jugak..haha"

me," iye? uisyh seminggu je..saya tengok kawan2 sayalah..yang banyaknya putus cinta, memang menangislah..luar nampak happy tapi boleh nampak dia sedih..ada yang sampai sakit2 lah..ada yang fail examlah..ada yang try carik orang lain tapi at the same time mengharap kat bf/gf lamala..macam2lah.."

person 2,"memanglah..lain orang lain dia punya cara sedih tu.."

Person 3 , " saya relax je putus cinta..pastu carik lain..macam dulu saya putus ngan awek lama, esoknya saya couple ngan orang lain..."

k.su," itu memang dah kenal orang lain masa kau dengan gf lama tu..mesti kau yang tinggalkan dia.."

person 3,"eyh takdelah k.su..dia tinggalkan saya sebab nak kawen..tapi kawen 6 bulan je bercerai..orang laki ni putus cinta relax je k.su..takde nak tunjuk2 sangat..nak sedih2 sangat takdela..carik orang lain.."

the 4th person, a guy said the same thing..in addition he said that he still kept his ex-es things and pictures as a memory..but k.arma said that she burn all the things of his ex-es..takde kenangan2 ni..

i asked him,"(his gf's name) tau tak (person 4) simpan gambar ex gf (person 4)?"

person 4"eyh mestilah taktau..mana boleh tau..gambar tu bkn apa..kenangan je.."

me,"habis tu kalau dia simpan gambar ex-bf dia bolehlah ye?"

person 4,"eyh mana boleh.." and he was speechless..

sometimes i just wonder..why some people doesnt want others to do something, but at the same time they did the same thing.. like in person 4 case, kept the picture of his ex but doesnt want his gf to keep the picture of her ex.. when we doesnt want others to do certain things, we have to do the same thing to others to right? what you gave, you get back.. and i always believe that there should be a give and take in relationship.. life and love works in mysterious ways.. eceh2..ayat tak boleh blah..hehehe..

okeih..arini sudah merepek dengan panjangnya..marilah tidur..esok keje..haih..

normal/abnormal

when I started to miss someone I usually do something that reminds me of him/her such as reading the old text from him/her or go through the pictures of him/her..

is it normal? or abnormal...

When we like the opposites so much we always wanted to know everything about him/her.

His/her birthday. His/her thought about anything. His/Her favourite colours, place, etc etc..

We are also tend to think about him/her everytime and everywhere we go..

When we do it silently, we are called secret admirer..

But when we do it openly, which intend to make that person acknowledged us but instead started to irritate that person, we are called stalker..

And who likes stalker? we all hate stalker..i hate stalker..

to have someone who understand you, who you can say the other half of you..

who you can be yourself when they around you..who accept evrything good and bad about you..

who you're comfortable with everytime you talked or surround them..

are nice (^_^)

overthinking

We have came to the end of year 2009..another 2 weeks, we're going to the new year, 2010. Sometimes it makes me keep thinking how fast time were moving.

I still remember the day I went to school to get spm result...the day i got offer from uitm to pursue study in accountancy..the day i met wonderful friends..

I still remember the day when i stop doing anything after diploma and just sitting around at home for almost a year..

I still remember the day when i went to melaka to starts new life..and the day i got my degree and starts working..

Sometimes life goes on too fast that i cant even notice..For all i know i might be 40..if only i could stop life from moving on..but i guess that's life..i cant stop anything from happening but i could pray for everything will went ok..

it's hard sometimes to be someone who overthinking..haih..

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i'm happy (^_^)

When we are thinking about bad things about others, we tend to curse them or at least saying bad things about them inside our head.

But when we thought it over a night, we keep questioning ourself, when we think about bad things about others, like thinking others are sluts or whatsoever for doing things she did, doesnt it makes us just like her/them? i mean for not thinking that maybe she/they have a solid reason for doing things she/they did..

ok..apa saya merepek ni..abaikan..hehe

when you didnt express your feelings through words doesnt mean you dont feel it isnt it..

but how to express through words when there's a lot of things that you were thinking and feel..

i wish i knew the answers..

interesting knowledge to be shared

I copy these from some articles from http://iluvislam.com. Interesting to be be shared. Sharing is caring..hehe

Surah An-nisa,ayat 31:
"Jika kamu menjauhkan dosa-dosa besar yang dilarang kamu melakukannya, Kami akan ampunkan kesalahan-kesalahan (dosa kecil) kamu dan kami akan masukkan kamu ke tempat yang mulia (Syurga)."

[An-Nur: 26]
Wanita-wanita yang keji adalah untuk laki-laki yang keji, dan laki-laki yang keji adalah buat wanita-wanita yang keji (pula), dan wanita-wanita yang baik adalah untuk laki-laki yang baik dan laki-laki yang baik adalah untuk wanita-wanita yang baik (pula). Mereka (yang dituduh) itu bersih dari apa yang dituduhkan oleh mereka (yang menuduh itu). Bagi mereka ampunan dan rezki yang mulia (surga)

Sometimes we broke other's heart without intention and cant help of feeling guilty especially when that person keep braging or keep telling everyone he/she's hurt in a way that not everyone knows the meaning..



I always believe in a quote," what you gave, you get back". if you hurt others, or messing around with other's heart, someday others would do the same to you..but what if you done it without purpose? Will you get what you gave? haih...

charity works..

As been told before, I went to RACTAR last friday..it was a tiring, fun and educational trip..Being there with the unfortunate kids makes me realise how lucky i am..

Dr Nafsiah, one of their guardians was a lecturer for my bos and my audit senior..what a small world..She met her former students in different ways..

Masa ucapan, dia cakap yang banyak rumah disediakan untuk anak-anak yatim tapi tak banyak rumah yang terima anak-anak terbiar dan miskin. RACTAR dibina untuk semua anak-anak yatim, miskin dan terbiar..and kebanyakan yang ada dalam RACTAR tu anak-anak terbiar.. bila parents bercerai, anak-anak tak ada tempat bergantung..ada yang kahwin lain tapi anak yang dah ada tak diendahkan.

Masa dekat sana, ada lebih kurang 30 orang anak-anak ractar yang ada so they were divided to 5 groups. One group ada dalam 6 orang. 5 out of 6 kids in my group has either mother or father and their parents were separated. This one girl i interviewed, she said that their parents were separated and she didnt know where her dad goes. So there she was. She had been living there for 4 years and she's 16 now..seeing her, knowing her story really touch my heart. She has other siblings who already worked but they leave her there.

They looked so happy yet they have so many sad stories. These were some of the stories being told by them to us..These were being told by Kak Arma and Kak Su since we from different groups..

Kisah 1

"Mak dengan ayah ada lagi?"

"Ayah dah meninggal.."

"akak tanya ni kalau tak boleh jawab takpe, meninggal kenapa?"

"kena langgar lori.."

Kisah 2-dengan bdk 4 or 5 thn

"adik kat sini ada siapa2 kat rumah tak?"

"ada mak"

"ayah?"

"ayah dalam penjara. dia hisap dadah"

"sapa cakap?"

"mak.."

These were some of many stories of their life. Hearing their stories really makes me feel like i'm living in a quite different world with theirs..and it makes me so grateful knowing how fortunate i am for having a happy life with my family always stand besides me on my ups and down of life..

with my groups..

have you ever had a hunch that something bad would happen?

or have you ever had a bad feelings and you dont know how to get rid of it..

how to get over it?

trust..

orang cakap..bukan saya cakap..

kalau kita nak orang percaya kita, kita kena percaya orang tu dulu..

tapi macamana nak percaya orang 100% zaman sekarang ni? susah kan..bila baca paper bapak rogol anak sendiri sampai mengandung, tak ke buat kita terpikir..kalau bapak sendiri pon kita tak boleh percaya, orang lain apantah lagi..

tapi saya percaya, buat baik dibalas baik..jadi kalau kita percaya orang, mungkin orang akan percaya kita..

erm..tapi saya pernah kena tegur dengan manager kat ofis sebab pernah one day masa keluar dengan dia nak pergi makan, ada sorang cina ni tiba2 tegur nak mintak tolong..he said that his car was out of gas and he left his wallet. so he asked me for rm10 as a favor..

he said he will pay me back..my reaction? erm..what was on my mind that time was if i'm in his position i would like for someone to help me too..and it just rm10 so i gave him the money and asked for my number to pay me back.

what happen after that was, he call me the next day to pay me back but on top of that, he told me that he has some business opportunity and asked if i'm interested. i said no and he said that he's somewhere around mydin to pay me back. i told him that it's ok..it just rm10 so he no need to pay me back but he insist to pay me back..as it was in the morning, i told him that i couldnt go there..i could meet him around lunch hour..so what happen was, when i reached there, i texted him. and he said that he already left and he will pay me back next time..

so, after what happen, my manager told me not to trust people easily..people could just go to you, asked for money. and he might be a thief or whatsoever..yelah, zaman sekarang kan banyak kes..ada pukau la apalah..macam-macam kan..she said it's not the matters of money but it is about our safety too..i guess it's true but i just couldnt help for feeling sorry when people asked for help..macam bila ada budak2 mintak derma..or kat kedai2 makan ada orang datang mintak derma untuk orang-orang susah, kadang2 kita jadi sangat sceptical kan..orang ni betul ke or dari sindiket penipuan..kadang-kadang bagi je sebab malas nak argue..and kadang-kadang tu cakap taknak and buat taktau tapi deep down tetap rasa bersalah..what if, orang tu betul2 mintak derma untuk orang yang memerlukan?

jadi, macamana nak detect..orang macamana boleh dipercayai..and orang macamana tak boleh dipercayai? takkan kita nak percaya orang based on their appearance..sebab perompak pon boleh pakai serban and nampak macam orang alim and baik2..and tak semua orang yang pakai rugged2, seluar koyak sana sini atas nama fesyen tak boleh dipercayai..so under what ground do we judge whether certain person could be trust and certain we shouldnt trust them?

my company has decided to do some charity work this year..yelah, selalu pegi travel sana sini as aktiviti company so, kak asiah, the big boss decided to go to orphanage home..

so..guess who's been given the position of 'ketua unit pembangunan dan sosial'?

eceh2 konon2 nak bagi soalan suh orang jawabla kan..okla, tak payah jawab..

sayalah..<----jawapannya..(poyo kan? kalau poyo pon jangan cakap ye..haha)

okeih..since i'm not suitable being a leader, mostly i asked for my senior's opinion..ok, sangat susah sikit kerjanya since i have to ask my boss permission for anything i want to do..

but it feels good for doing something that benefit others..

cuma kerja lain makin banyak..kerja urgent makin banyak masuk..and i just been assigned to do 3 urgent audit report today..yang satu tu actually kena siapkan by today..yang lagi 2 supposely by next week.. and we have to take annual leave on this thursday..

ok ok..saya tak merungut..cuma rasa masa tak cukup nak siapkan suma benda..tapi nak balik awal jugak..sengal? memang pon..hehe

ok sebenarnya entry ini untuk luahkan perasaan dan juga meminta jasa baik mereka2, yang ingin menderma untuk anak2 yatim dan miskin, sila hubungi saya..we're going on 4th December so siapa2 rasa nak menderma, mari2..hehe..

barang-barang yang saya dah tanya En Dzulkarnain, pengurus RACTAR yang diorang perlu:

-barang2 runcit & toileteries (cth: bawang, milo, cili kering, teh, shampoo, sabun serbuk, sabun buku, etc2..beras dan minyak tak diperlukan since ada banyak lagi stok)

-kain2 sekolah (putih, sekolah rendah, menengah dan agama)

-buku2 latih tubi (upsr, pmr, spm)

-voucher bata (kasut sekolah)

erm..itu je kot yang ingat..kalau ada baju2 lama yang masih elok lagi nak bagi pon boleh bagi..anything lah..cant wait for that day..hrm...

'geli' moment..

i love the moment i went out of the office, starts the engine and off to go home sweet home..

the moment i hate is that stuck in front of the summit due to the heavy traffic so i usually use different route..

but everytime i need my entertainment of seeing a 'show', a disgusting one, i usually use the route in front of the summit..

seeing others picking their nose is quite a normal scenery..or eating..or reading a newspaper..or sikat misai..however, yesterday i encounter a new habit..

cabut bulu hidung dalam kereta.. geli? absolutely.. but maybe he also wanted to kill the time while waiting for the police traffic to let us go..

macam-macam ragam orang bila driving kan..hehe

Meaningful quote for today

"Sometimes we fall for someone we least expected to fall for..."

i read or heard this somewhere but i dont know where and when but it captured my heart..

there's no reason for falling in love..

if you love your boyfriend/girlfriend because he's handsome/ she's beautiful, it's not love but lust..

if you love your boyfriend/girlfriend because he's/ she's rich, you're just after their wealth not them..

if you have no solid reason for loving someone yet you're falling for him/her, then that means, you love him/her unconditionally..

i used to ask my friends,

"how'd you know when you're in love?"

their answer?

to be honest i didnt get the answer..

i think.. i think... maybe the answer are different based on different people..

maybe.. when you keeping thinking of the opposites every single day..every single night..every hour..every minute, every second..you're in love with that person..

maybe..

small things..

some people didnt really realise that things they did to us, small things i mean, would meant a lot to us..

for example,

have a courtesy to say thank you each time we help them..

or.. remember your birthday..

or.. invite you to her/his wedding by her/himself (i mean, not invite you by asking others to ask you on behalf of them..)

or.. remember that you like chocolate for example..

apa lagi ye..erm..too many things to list down..hehe..

erm..ok..what i'm trying to say here is that, sometimes small things we did to others might brighten their day..

at least i do.. (^_^)

question for the day..

if love could be define by words, what would it be?

i've been working for about 3 months and there's still a lot to learn..

every day is still a learning process..

especially when dealing with a fussy clients..

there's to many kind of people..

yang akan buatkan kita terpikir,"orang macam ni pon ade ye.."

like this one person..my former officemate angkat telefon and die tak dengar nama that person..so she asked again.."sori, sapa ni?"

and tau tak that person cakap apa..

with a tone that like bragging,"mizan..ala nama macam agong tu...awak takkan tak kenal agong.."

kalau die ok cakap nak melawak2 it's fine..tapi bila cakap in different tone..macam..haih mamat ni..plus he has some attitude that makes you want to kill yourself rather than dealing with him..

haih..different people...different attitude..different stupidity..

i just got back from clinic and guess what..

i've got the mc..

but surprisingly i feel like i have to go to work tomorrow since i've taken too many medical leave past few months..

pelik kan..me? nak pegi keje esok..but we have to wait and see..

rasa rugi pulak ada mc and tak guna..hehe..

it just devastating when you're trying to be nice and people judge you differently..

it makes you wonder.. cant you just be a nice person and not being misjudge by others..

its like being nice will led to bad impression..

contoh, bila kita diam je orang kata kita sombong tapi bile kita try jadi friendly, orang kata kita taktau malu pulak..

but it's hard to pleased everyone isnt it..

but still..it just quite devastating to deal with different kind of people with different kind of judgement..

haih...dont care..dont want to think about it..

but i need to learn something first..

how to stop overthinking..

anyone?

entry perasan sendiri..hehe

erm last week was quite a hectic week for me..i went to kuala kubu to present some account for this one super wealthy client..he's in construction business so what do you expect kan..mestila duit ribu riban dalam bank..hehe..

he's also active in politic and is doing some research on how people in certain range of age react on politics..me? i'm not quite a fan in politics so i just let my senior answer his question sambil berangan bilelah meeting ni nak habis..ngantuk ni..sengal kn..dalam meeting pon boleh berangan dapat bantal and tilam yang super selesa untuk tidur..hehe..

so..habis meeting, on the way back to office, i slept in the car..muahahaha..

in the evening while chatting and everything, the bos asked me how's the meeting with the client..i told her everything was fine..and my senior said that the client ask us about the politic question..ok, turn out my bos and the client ade different opinion on which party they support..

jadi lagi sekali..dengar je apa bos nk cakap..then she said,"silap kalau die cakap ngan akak ni..silap2 nanti tarik company taknak buat account dengan kite dah.."

then she said to me," kau cakap apa?"

me,"takde pape..saya senyap je biar nizar cakap.."

my bos," dia mestila nak cakap pasal umno tu..muka kau pon macam puteri umno.."

me? puteri umno? heh...surely la gelak besar..and answer," saya tak minat politic la akak.."

kak arma manager secretary pon agree, die cakap my face ada sikit macam puteri umno and when she said that, my bos added," muka kau ni pon ade dalam tv tu..ala ada yang cerita apa tu, akak tak ingat tapi ada tu..yang untuk model2 camtu.."

ok, what? model? gile sengal ok..haha..

tak tahan betul..

model mana ade jerawat and bekas2 jerawat macam saya..model mana ade yang banyak babat macam saya..model kan cantik and cute..eyh tapi cute tu mungkin ada..muahahahaha (dah perasan sendiri kejap..hahaha)

p/s: difa, kau baca entry ni mesti rasa cam menyesal baca kan..hahaha

i love to daydreaming when i have time..

you know, thinking about your future..what's going to happen next in your life..etc etc..

last week on my convocation, i thought it might be the last time of seeing everyone in my batch as all of us move on to the next phase of life, that is working life..

the same feeling i had when i left my diploma friends..

we had our own journey..some we contact until we get old, some were not..

i guess life is quite a journey.. sometimes it might be a beautiful journey, sometimes not..

the point is, people come and go in your life..

i wish everything would stay the same..

but that's life isnt it..

people come and go in our life..haih..

heart beat

my friends once told me that when your heart beat so fast when you're thinking about someone, it means, you're in love with that person..

i used to think, what if we're thinking about that person when we're running?

mestilah heart beat akan laju jugak..betul tak?

ok, apa saya merepek ni?

sila abaikan entry merepek ni..

bye..hehe

tak nampek

i was lazying around in front of tv after eating (to get mood to start ironing my baju kurung) when my mom asked me, (in kelantan dialect),

mom : mu tak make?

me : dah make dah.. tak basuh pingge (pinggan) pon lagi..ni ha (sambil tunjuk pinggan)

mom : owh..tak nampek (nampak)..

(me n mom burst out laugh)

it makes me wonder, orang kelantan cakap nampak as nampek ke? hahahha

terharu

thanx difa~~~~~~~~~sayang kau..uisyh..aku ckp ni in public..kna bbangga ni..hehe

luahan perasaan

haih..

people, please do not send any chain email to me..haih

tensionla bile baca kat bawah email lepas apa2 cerita or pesanan,

'sila forwardkan kepada sekurang-kurangnya 10-20 orang pesanan ini. jika anda gagal berbuat demikian, nasib malang akan menimpa diri anda..jika anda berjaya berbuat demikian, hajat anda akan termakbul...'

seriously la people...tolonglah..tolonglah jangan penuhkan inbox saya dgn email2 macam tu..

kadang2 tu rasa tension dapat email macam ni, macam sembelit 3 hari tak dapat membuang2 lagi..

so, silalah kasihan kepada diri saya..email2 macam tu, tak payahla forward...

and one more thing, tak jatuh syirik ke percaya yang kalau kite forward email2 tu apa2 hajat kite akan termakbul sedangkan yang makbulkan doa2 kita Allah bukan sebab kite forward email2 macam tu..haih..

*emo mood sbb dapat sampai 4 email macam tu dalam satu hari je..*

beza anak dara sekarang ngan dulu2-part 2

okeih..terlambat pulak bg jawapan apa yg boss saya tanya aritu..

"tau tak apa beza anak dara dulu dengan sekarang?..."

nak tau apa jawapan my boss tak?

jeng....

jeng....

jeng...

beza anak dara dulu dengan sekarang....

jeng...

jeng...

jeng...

"anak dara dulu2 sekarang dah kerepot..anak2 dara sekarang masih muda.."

sengal tak? sengal kan..hahaha..

tiba2 bos wat lawak sengal..memang tak tahan betul..hahaha

beza anak dara sekarang ngan dulu2-part 1

my bos bising2 tadi about me n another colleague, for not being the 'actual' anak dara yang sikit2 nak kemas ofis and whatsoever..

the problem is, kami taktau nak kemas macamana..i mean, u know when the place is messy and full of stuff and u dont know where to start..

she said that dulu, kak su rajin je kemas2..kak su is on leave..

then, she said again to my colleague and all of us hear it,

"tau tak apa beza anak dara dulu dengan sekarang?...'

cube tekalah apa jawapan die..

i will answer on the next post..

jeng jeng jeng...

jodoh

i'm quite busy this weekend as i have appointment on saturday and my officemate came to beraya at my house on sunday..

haih..esok dah keje..

however i manage to watch 'syurga cinta' at astro box office..sebab kena gosok baju..so sambil gosok baju sambil tengok tv..hehe

there's a conversation between shuhada's (haliza) grandfather and am (awal shaari) that i think is quite interesting..

(i cant remember the exact script tp lebih kurang macam ni lah..)

atuk shuhada ," jodoh terbahagi kepada 3, pertama jodoh syaitan. kamu berkenalan dengan shuhada, berpegangan tangan lalu melakukan maksiat. kemudian barulah kamu bernikah dengannya..

yang kedua, jodoh dari jin..kamu sukakan shuhada tapi shuhada tak sukakan kamu. jadi kamu jumpa bomoh dan sihirkan shuhada dan akhirnya kamu menikah...

yang ketiga, jodoh dari Allah..kamu memandang matanya lalu jatuh cinta pada shuhada. am meminang shuhada dan bernikah dengannya.."

quite interesting kan..tapi taktau lah betul ke tak..

letter from uitm

finally...i've received the letter about the convocation..

but i dont really feel the excitement of going to the graduation..

maybe because i feel like i should done better..

i have the same feeling during my diploma year where i dont feel like going to the convocation..

only this time i feel better because at least i prove i can do it on my final semester..

even only my final semester result is the only one i can be proud of..

i dont care..

so kepada mereka2 especially difa, nak bunga convo~~~~~

hahahaha..

18/10 tau..kena datang tau difa..tak kira..haha..hadi, sharil, korang pon kena datang.. hehe

i felt like being beaten..

haiyoh sakitnye badan2 ni..

(T_T)

procrastination

procrastination has been my problem since i'm still a student..

and i cant really stop procrastinate things..

because it's makes me stop thinking about the problem, homework or anything that i have to do..

but i cant sleep well when i procrastinate things since i keep thinking about it because my head still being active even when i fall asleep..

but... procrastinate things stop me from facing the reality for a while.. from facing the pain of the truth..

i want to learn to stop procrastinate things..

how to stop?

near death experience

what your first expression on the driver of the car above when u see the condition of the car?

erm..actually i dont really need the answer..hehe

my brother met an accident last wednesday around 1 a.m..he went out using my dad's car to lepak2 with his friends..

for those who knows ss15 areas, he met an accident near ss15, dekat traffic light banyak2 tu..

proton saga hit him from accross the street..kire my brother almost lepas, the proton saga hit the back of the car and makes the car spinning like gasing and taktau macamana boleh melayang2 pegi another cross of the street..

and kawan kepada kawan my adik kebetulan belakang my adik..he saw everthing..the proton saga langgar lampu merah and he said, when he saw the whole thing, he expect my brother in several pieces (innallillah)..he opened the door for my brother as my brother couldnt move..

during the impact, seat belt tercabut and he was holding the seat belt, and he fell down the driver seat..nasib baik bawah seat tu quite spacious..and bile airbag terbukak, cover my adik..so he quite safe behind the seat..

my adik said when he fell down, he feel the car was spinning but he cant do anything..

seriously, if i'm in that situation, i will cry first..hehe..

the other driver was safe too but he cant say a word after the accident due shock..he was calming himself..

my adik too was quite shocked..luckily for him, he doesnt have any injury except the bruises..

this is the second time he had accident but this is the major one..the accident memang sangat mengejutkan semua orang and semua orang bersyukur yang die drive my dad's car not his..

nasib baik kereta die takde minyak that time..

and alhamdullillah he's fine..sangat2 bersyukur...

when this kind of event occur in your life, it makes you think..

are you ready to die..

eventhough i never experience a near death experience..

still..it makes me think...have i prepared to die?

hurm....

dolphins

i was browsing the internet as usual and i found articles about dolphins..and dolphins reminds me of someone..

**berangan mode**

proses menguraikan puzzle part 3

the 3rd and final hamper my father had received..sedih woo lepas ni tak dapat dah..kena tunggu raya tahun depan plak..haih..hehe

hasilnya..banyak betul makanan..hehe

looking back

While organizing and finally have guts to throw all my notes/past year during diploma, i found old stuff, pictures, cards, poem everything that relates to my past..

Looking back at the past makes me wonder about life..things happen on the past makes us the person we are right now..

I cant really say that i am proud of a person i am now since i'm still new in surviving life..still cant live on my own..still need support from my parents and friends..

i'm still looking for the right path..i wish and hoping that one day when i look back on my life, i would at least proud of myself..

erm..looking at the pictures when i'm still in the primary and high school makes me wanted to turn back time..

the memories of being such a young, innocent person were so priceless..

so young..so innocent..and nothing to be worry at all..

the cards..the poem wrote by my friend to me will be remain..

if it suddenly lost because of fire or anything, it will still remain in my heart..

*tetiba jadi minah jiwang jap..haha*

"Life is difficult. This is a great truth, one of the greatest truths. It is a great truth because once we truly see this truth, we transcend it. Once we truly know that life is difficult- once we truly understand and accept it- then life is no longer difficult. Because once it is accepted, the fact that life is difficult no longer matters"

"Love is too large, too deep ever to be truly understood or measured or limited within the framework of words"

Parts of the phrase written by M. Scott Peck in 'The Road Less Traveled' that i loved.

to some people like me who doesnt have kampung..

who doesnt know how to play mercun, bunga api and seangkatan dengannya,

doesnt really know the feeling of people who often celebrate raya at kampung..

my family and i usually celebrate raya only on the first raya..

2nd day raya, live life as usual..

on the 1st raya,
after sembahyang raya, we went to my uncle's house and some other relative's house..

after that...balik rumah, tido or tengok tv..

sometimes i envy people who has kampung..

boleh kacau dodol..buat bahulu..anyam ketupat..bakar lemang..

pasang pelita..kacau2 makcik2 belakang rumah yang sibuk masak rendang..

dapat rasa suasana raya yang betul2 raya..

dapat main mercun..main bunga api..

dapat rasa perasaan tersangkut dalam jem nak balik kampung sebab banyak kereta sangat sambil lambai2 orang sebelah konon2 kenal padahal tak kenal langsung..hehe

haih..takpela..terima jela diri ini orang bandar yang takde kampung..hehehe

btw, selamat hari raya aidilfitri, maaf zahir batin to everyone who were reading this dengan ucapan, "kalau anda baik hati, silalah bagi duit raya kepada azliza yang sangat baik" hahaha

duit raya

things i will miss the most on raya is....

duit raya...uwaaa~~~~

since i'm working right now, i guess it's my turn to give duit raya..

no more accepting duit raya...

yelah..selalu lagi tua, samada dapat banyak or tak dapat langsung..

haha..sengal kan dah tua2 n bekerja masih nak duit raya..boleh tak guna excuse, saya baru kerja sebulan..tak mampu berdiri atas kaki sendiri lagi..hehe..

and untuk orang2 macam saya yang baru berjinak2 nak jadi orang yang takkan dapat duit raya,

terima duit raya sangatlah benda yang menggembirakan..


weeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ happy mode~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

hehehehe

proses menguraikan puzzle part 2

raya dah nak dekat, so adalah a few yang bagi hamper/stock free kat ayah saya..so today, balik kerja nampak hamper..apa lagi, mestila excited nak bukak kan..hehe..afterall, this might be the last one kot..taktau nape but this year bank je yang bagi..supplier bagi stock..haih..hehe

sebelum dikerjakan..hehe

xiexie cimb bank..hehe

bakul sangat besar tapi letak banyak2 sampah/kertas nak bagi cantik..barang takdelah banyak pon..

hasilnya..walaupon tak banyak, but coklat2 die imported..quality is better than quantity kan..hehe..

imported chocolate yang setahun sekali nak makan pon susah..(eceh2..padahal tak berapa suke coklat ni (yg merah) sebab sangat coklat..camne heh nak explain, erm..sangat creamy coklat2 yang makan banyak2 boleh muak..hehe)

hasilnya...haih..banyakla kumpul lemak raya..haih..hehehe

Ikutilah kisah teladan ini..ikutla moral of the storynya....hehe

Yesterday, i feel so damn sleepy as i cant sleep well the night before..i woke up every 1 hour..tension woo..i guess that happen when there's something on my mind..


so, as usual, i have to woke up on 640am as my office starts at 750am (actually 8 tapi jam office cepat 10minit)..dengan nak tempuh crazy traffic depan summit lagi..


so..with a headache i drive to office and reach in one piece..hehe


(work as usual with mata yang makin sepet and kepala berat..dahla takde rehat kan..ngantuk2..hehe)


at 3.59 p.m...


me, cakap dalam hati lah kan.."uisyh lagi satu minit nak balik..erm..takpela, buat keje sikit lagi..."


at 4.30pm..went home with sleepy head and was thinking about something.. daydreaminglah.. hehe


around 5pm, selamat sampai rumah, bukak gate.. and as usual buat reverse parking as it is easier for me bile dah lambat pegi office..


masa nak reverse tu..still mengantuk tahap maximum and at the same time tengah pikirkan something..


cakap dalam hati sambil daydreaming,"budget2 boleh belakang lagi ni..okeih, belakang lagi, sikit lagi..lepas kot pagar ni.."


"okeih, depan sikit pastu reverse balik.."


tanpa tukar gear 'D' and gear masih di 'R', terus tekan minyak..


"(bunyi berlanggaran..)"


dalam hati," ya Allah...aiyoooo.....habislah..mintak2 tak teruk...haih...."


terus keluar kereta, dalam hati," aaaaa......uwaaaa~~~~..pecah lampu belakang...haiyoooo...."




hasil pelanggaran kereta dengan gate rumah...inilah akibat memandu dengan mengantuk yang teramat and berangan tak sudah..huhuhuhu..


jadi harini terpaksa pegi kerja seperti zaman2 budak sekolah rendah dihantar ayahnya..dan bile balik seperti kanak2 riang gembira waktu sekolah dah habis tapi kemudiannya kecewa melihat rakan2 lain pulang ke rumah dengan gembira tapi diri sendiri tak dapat pulang ke rumah dengan serta-merta kerana terpaksa menunggu ayah jemput pulang ke rumah..hehehe


erm..tapi mungkin juga, saya langgar gate rumah dengan sengaja sebab nak rasa balik zaman2 sekolah dihantar dan diambil..terasa seperti kanak2 yang dilimpahi dengan penuh kasih sayang..eceh ceh..(buat alasan yang mungkin hanya munasabah pada diri sendiri sebab dah langgar gate rumah sendiri..hehehe)


bila tau harga nak repair kereta tu, tersentap kejap. dan mula dapat bayangkan kalau bayar sendiri, almost semua duit gaji terbang bagai burung terbang bebas di langit...lampu je dah 500++.. nak ketuk lagi..cat lagi..haiyooo~~~


so moral of the story, silalah langgar gate rumah sendiri or tembok rumah kalau nak rasa balik kenangan semasa zaman budak2 sekolah dihantar dan diambil dari sekolah..eh eh.. salah2...bukan2, ni bukan moral of the story nya..hehe


moral of the story yang betul2, silalah jangan drive ketika sangat mengantuk dan janganlah daydreaming ketika drive..


pesanan terakhir, drive carefully, ingatlah orang tersayang...hehehe

usually when we have feelings like wanted to give something, anything to someone, we might fall for that person without we realize it..

at least i do..haiyoo...

tired..

i dont have anymore energy to write what i've done today as i'm so tired and i have to rest for work tomorrow..haih..so i guess pictures could reflex thousand words..hehe

biskut cornflakes with raisin..

lain dari biasa

since next week dah raya, i've decided to bake some family tradition cookies today..yelah, my akak pon takde klas, my mom pon dah kata ok, so kami pon bertungkus lumus buat tradition cookies, biskut kerutu..

mesti orang pelik kan, tak pernah dengar biskut ni..hehe..nama die kerutu sebab bentuk die macam alien kerutu2..hehehe

see, macam alien kan, ada mata, ada idung merah lagi..cuma takde mulut..hahaha

we start around 11am and finish around 3pm..i slept after that until almost 5pm..

then, ntah kenapa arini mood rajin sangat, i bake cornflakes again..sebab pikir nak bagi my adik since he has to go back to melaka today and havent taste the cookies..(eceh2, konon2 akak mithali..haha)

after that, baju2 untuk pegi keje di iron..

my mom said she felt asleep after praying since she exhausted from baking biskut kerutu..my sister pon dah collapse depan hall rumah and said,"ni semua adik punya pasal ni..(penat buat biskut..hehe)"

then my mom said,"eh, die kat belakang iron baju pulak..ok je..tak penat pulak..lepas buat biskut kerutu buat cornflakes pulak..ni dah iron baju..(tak ingat exact word..)"

and my sister,"adik lainlah arini, tak macam biasa..(something like that..tak ingat the exact word..hehe)"

ces...what she meant is that, i usually felt exhausted easily and quite lazy..tapi tengok harini, sapa malas sekarang? hehehehe

menguraikan pelekat2 hamper ala2 detective conan

bile dekat2 nak raya, benda yang paling saya suka buat, bukak hamper bile ada supplier bagi kat ayah..weee~~~

since some supplier asked my father what he wants, he usually asked for free stocks..so jaranglah nak dapat hamper banyak2 tahun ni..haih..sedihnya..hehehe

but lagi bagus macam tu coz selalu hamper2 tu pon penuh dengan coklat yang supplier tu supply..cuma kesianla saya yang suka bukak hamper ni..hehe

so tadi, dapat bukak satu hamper yang besar dari ambank..best woo~~~

bukan apa, satu kepuasan dapat leraikan kotak2 yang orang dah lekat2 bagi tinggi2..kadang2 bergaduh dengan gunting nak leraikan satu2 kotak..ala, macam selesaikan puzzle tu..

kepuasan dia macam tu..macam dapat solvekan puzzle yang susah or selesaikan misteri macam detective conan..haha

dalam proses nak uraikan satu2 barang..

hasil daripada proses penguraian pelekat2 hamper..hehehe

i believe that, 'what you gave, you get back'..

meaning, whatever we did to others, anything good or bad things, will eventually came back to us..especially bad things, it will hunt us back..

let say we take advantage on others, someday, someone will take advantage on us too..

or, we help others when they need us, someday, when we need help, someone will be there for us..

so, i will try my best not doing something that i dont like people do to me..

but sometimes, it is out of my control..

i'm not trying to make an excuse here..

but when it comes to heart matters, i'm not really myself..

i dont want others to do the same to me but i just cant help it..

i hate myself when i'm like this..

cant make decision..haih haih haih..

second cookies..

terasa sangat poyo bile setiap kali try buat kek or buat cookies mesti tulis dalam ni..tapi tak kisahlah..sapa yang rasa saya sangat poyo, buat-buatlah rasa saya sangat comel bile dah tua ni (ops salah, mudalah..) baru nak buat kek or cookies sendiri..meaning mak tak tolong bancuh cuma tolong masa nak letak adunan untuk dibakar..hehe

sebab akak kat ofis tu asyik cerita pasal biskut cornflakes yang sangat sedap and senang nak buat, walaupun takde the exact resipi, hati ini sangat berkobar-kobar nak buat gak..hehe

jadinya, balik dari ofis terus keluarkan butter bagi temperature room..dalam pukul 8, terus bekerja keras (ceh, takla keras sangat..hehe)..by 9 semua dah settle..sangat kagum dengan diri sendiri sampai cakap kat mak, kalau senang camni, buat 200 biji pon takpe..(padahal malas tapi sebab saja nak bangga diri sendiri, cakaplah camtu..hehehe)


and my first attempt of baking cornflakes cookies berjaya..hooyeay~~~hehehehe

see...berjaya..tapi sangat senang sebab takde keje remeh temeh nak ayak tepung and so on sebab tak guna tepung..hehe..but this weekend nak try buat cookies cornflakes yang guna tepung pulak..hopefully berjaya..chayo2~~~ hehe

usual day at office..

on wednesday, i have some urgent job that makes me feel miserable and quite 'kabut'..

kalau orang tengok mesti akan rasa macam budak ni ada masalah ni, muka ketat je..hehe

but i feel like i have no time to do two job at the same time, bungkus kerepek to give to the client and at the same time i have to finish up audit report for 2 company since it's final date to submit to ccm is today..

while i run to ensure that i do 2 job at the same time, i almost trip down when i wanted to print my report, so as usual, mestila melatah,"oh mak kau.."

and staff who sat besides me, edy or pak lawak di ofis suddenly said," ha? mana-mana? rasanya kat rumah..."

i am totally blur and suddenly realize, he was answering me, 'oh mak kau..'..u know, like i'm saying, oh, mak edy..

i laughed and forget about my stress on work..

a small laughed like this could brighten my stressful life at office..

so a piece of advice, marilah gelak2 bile stress..best woo~~~~ hehehe

my first attempt

i made some chocolate cookies today..semangat nak buat cookies sendiri tahun ni..padahal tak pernah buat pon sebelum ni. hehe.

so, the first batch of the cookies turn out like piring terbang hangus (my mom gives the name. hehe)..

see..sangat besar macam piring terbang and hangus sebab kena tembak..haha
second batch, size dah ok but terlajak bakar so turn out hangus gak..

the third batch baru jadi sket..

the taste? erm..manis gile..terlebih gula..sebab gula baru bukak..hehehe

tapi sangat penat rasanya..terpikir macamana orang buat cookies banyak2..ni baru sikit dah rasa nak tido satu hari tak bangun2..hehe

selangor cuti..hehe

After went out with my mom, i went out with hyne, difa and paan.. we went out to eat together..breaking fast lah..bukan mkn lunch ye..hehe

It was fun..i cant wait for raya to gather together again since difa has to go back to jengka..sebab masih sekolah lagi..hahaha (berniat gelak jahat..hehe)

erm..takde gambar pulak nak letak..sume gambar kt camera difa..

sebenarnya saya busan..taktau nak wat apa padahal ada keje kena siapkan..malasnye..hehe

kisah sengal

yesterday, i went to buy some stuff to bake cakes and cookies for raya (eceh-eceh, perlu ke cakap..haha..) which like my mother said, "ntah2, beli je bahan tapi simpan sampai raya tahun depan"..hehe

so this conversation occur in the car while we (my mom, my sis and i) were listening to a raya song,


Situation 1

'....menyusun sepuluh jari memohon maaf~~~~' cant remember who's the singer but that was part of the lyrics..

suddenly, i blurt out things that was wondering in my mind,

"kalau ada budak tu main mercun hilang jari, macamana nak susun sepuluh jari mintak maaf?"

hehehe...all of us were laughing and my sister said,

"adik dah terpikir benda2 yang orang lain tak pernah terpikir..macam mak. gene mak dah mula berkembang sikit demi sikit..haha"

my mom,"die dah mula adapt lesson sikit demi sikit tu.."

haha..


Situation 2

tau tak accesories yang letak kat kereta yang akan goyang2 sendiri bile kena cahaya matahari tu? ala, yg macam pasu bunga then ada daun2 or butterfly tu.. my sis punya bentuk butterfly..

my sis," eyh, nape keta sebelah punye goyang2, azuranye tak goyang?"

i think everyone can predict what happen next, mestila my mom pegi sentuh and goyangkan die guna tangan,"ha, ni dah goyang.."

hehehe..


Situation 3

on the way back home, the butterfly goyang2 sendiri, and my mom,"ha, mak tak pegang pon die dah pandai goyang kepak die sendiri.."

me,"aahla..kepak die asyik goyang je..tapi tak terbang2..."

hahaha..

i love spent days with my family..ada je bahan nak menyengal..hahaha

kalau orang perempuan tu biasalah tak ingat jalan kan..

i mean takde sense of direction..

tapi kalau lelaki takde sense of direction tu macam pelik kan?

sapa setuju? sila angkat tangan

(bunyi sahut-menyahut, "saya2", "i stuju", "betul2, aku setuju", "agree!"..dan macam2 lagi orang menjerit setuju..hehe)

I was thinking..

everyone of us has our own experience in life..

each one of us has our own stories..

in a good and bad ways..

sad stories..

happy stories..

love stories..

adventure stories..

novel of our own with every kind of stories..

we are the walking novel..

yeah..we are..

lazy day..

I love a day of just lazying around in the house without doing nothing that used your head..

reading..surfing the internet..thinking about future..sleeping..doing nothing..

seronok kan..

Kadang-kadang

Kadang-kadang saya terpikir..

perangai manusia ni kadang-kadang pelik-pelik kan..

bila tengok seorang anak mintak balik duit yang dipinjam kepada ibunya dari ibunya sendiri, kite mengucap panjang..

kite mula cerita-cerita dekat orang lain..kalau nak dijadikan landasan untuk kita so that kita tak buat benda sama, it's ok..

tapi kalau kite mula kutuk anak tu, bukan ke kite dah berdosa sebab mengumpat orang?

tapi susah kan nak elak dari tak bercerita pasal orang lain..

lagi satu, kadang saya terpikir..

kalau ada orang ni tak pernah tinggal sembahyang, hari-hari pergi masjid/surau.. hari-hari try improvekan diri dari segi agama..hari-hari try sebaik mungkin belajar tajwid so that dapat mengaji dengan betul..

tapi.. dalam masa yang sama, kutuk/mengata orang lain, or questioned kenapa mak yang duduk rumah je, tapi anak tak terjaga sebab anak dia tak reti mengaji..

saya rasa cara orang tu salah..nak salahkan ibu mengandung sebab anak tak pandai mengaji? kalau ibu dah ajar, dan anak tu dah besar, bukan ke anak tu pon bertanggungjawab nak cari jalan yang betul untuk diri sendiri?

susah betul kan nak jadi hamba Allah yang tawadduk. banyak ilmu di dada tapi tak pernah nak condemn orang lain sebab tak tau pasal certain2 things..

kalau pandai macamana pon, walau ilmu agama penuh di dada pon tapi kalau orang tu keep saying dengan niat memerli or bangga diri,"benda simple pon tak tau..macamana ni.." dekat orang yang tak tau, tak gune kan macam tu. bukan ke lebih baik dia ajar pada yang jahil?

kadang-kadang kita terbuat dosa tanpa sedar kan.. haih..

hurm..

Orang cakap..

Orang cakap..

bila kita sering terpikirkan seseorang tu..

samaada die sihat ke..dah makan ke..apa die buat.. die teringatkan kita jugak ke..

maknanya kita rindu kat orang tu..

bila kite rindu orang tu, maknanya kita ambil berat pasal orang tu..

bila kite ambil berat pasal orang tu, maknanya kite dah sayang orang tu..

orang cakaplah..

tapi macamana nak tau apa orang cakap tu betul?

macamana kalau kita memang jenis macam tu?

jenis berpikir sepanjang masa..and orang yang kita pikirkan bukan sorang tapi lebih dari sorang..
macamana?

takkan kita jatuh cinta dengan lebih dari sorang kot?

pelik..pelik...

I found this article while browsing some stuff and i find it quite interesting..

http://www.geocities.com/traditionalislam/Hukum_merokok.htm

I went to uitm shah alam today..

being in the uitm brings back a memory when i'm a student back then.

seeing students walking around the campus reminds when i'm a student there long time ago..

they were wearing a matrix card. things i never do. tak rockla pakai matrix card kan. besides dulu pak guard tak tengok sangat pon matrix card..hehe

hurm..uitm shah alam..place where i obtain a diploma..

place where i met new interesting people who still be part of me..

place where i learn that success doesnt always comes to us when we dont fight for it..

place where i learn that doesnt mean if we get good grades in spm we will obtain the same grades in university

place where i grow older..

i might said bad things about uitm because of its system but still, i will never forget it as it was place where i obtain knowledge..

i really miss those days..days in uitm shah alam where all of us were goofing around..

where all in the class were united and nothing separates us..

kepada mereka2..

This entry dedicated to everyone who are in the final semester, especially difa, sharil, hadi, li and semualah.(nak list semua nama takut tertinggal so nama yang tak disebut ada dalam 'semualah'. hehe)

All the best for finals..semoga tabah menghadapi liku-liku sebagai final part student yang setiap hari, setiap minggu penuh dengan assignment nak kena hantar..dengan test yang tak berhenti..weekend yang ada pon macam takde sebab kena siapkan assignment yang tak henti2 sampailah final..

memahami keadaan korang (difa and sharil)..kalau satu paper je dah ada 3 pbl. kalau 7/6 subject... wooo~~~ banyaknya.. (do your own calculation..hehe)

if i'm the lazy one can do it, you can do it too.. chayo2~~~~ (^_^)

Between working and not working..

This event happened a week before i start working which means a long time ago..but it still remains in my mind..hurm..

A week before i start working, my friend and i went to ex-schoolmate's house to learn how to bake cheese cake.

So this conversation occur during the baking process..diubahsuai mengikut ingatan saya..hehe

"Az buat apa ye sekarang?"

"Isnin ni baru start keje..sya?"

"Sya ambik acca..ni tengah ambik 2 paper..tak sedar diri dah tua..hehe"

"haha..taklah tua..at least sya dah pernah kerja kan. az nak sambung belajar gak tapi nanti..kerja dulu kejap..at least ada pengalaman. tapi belum start kerja az dah malas ni..susah2 sangat nanti cari datuk mana2 kawen dok rumah jaga anak..hahaha.."

well, excuse untuk tak kerja selain belajar is kawen kan..haha..

"haha..habis tu susah payah belajar degree buat apa?"

me, terdiam sekejap, "takpe, boleh gantung degree buat perhiasan kat dinding..haha"

hurm..but seriously, people keep saying that once you get a degree, you have to work successfully, have a great job with a great salary and as if got married and not working such a waste of getting a degree..hurm..

I get it that some people have bigger obligation as they are the oldest in siblings or whatsoever so they have to work. But i dont get it why do we have to questioned others' opinion. different people different opinion isnt it? hehe

So, after baking, niza and i were talking in the car about the conversation between me and sya. she did not listened as she was doing something else. Then she asked me, "awk rasalah, salah ke kalau kite lebih suka duduk rumah bile dah kawen dari kerja. i mean is it wrong for us to want to be happy rather than not being happy and earn great money?" (macam biasa conversation diubahsuai ikut ingatan..lebih kurang jela..hehe)

"Samalah kite..it's better to earn small money or nothing at all for doing something we love rather than we suffer to earn big money kan..but for some people kalau dah ada degree, kenalah kerja best2..cari kerja yang dapat banyak duit. orang cakap buat apa belajar tinggi2 kalau niat tu tak mau kerja yg best2 lepas tu. it's like its totally wrong for having a degree but not working..
but kerja sampai 2-3 pagi, hari2 suffer, especially doing something that you hate, erm, buat apa..cari penyakit je. lebih baik duduk rumah happy2 dah kawen masak untuk family jaga anak. orang cakap salah, tapi tak semestinya salah kan. so the best thing is to ignore apa orang lain cakap..hehe"

"betul2..samalah kite fikir..baik duduk rumah masak untuk family dari kerja suffer je kan.."

"ya betul.."

Kesimpulannya, lu pikirla sendiri..(pinjam moto nabil jap..)..hahaha

p/s: difa, aku dah update..haha..

Selamat berpuasa

Fasting month starts tomorrow..

working hours starts at 8am until 4pm without break..

bukanlah takde break langsung..cuma, break tu masa untuk tadarus..

actually, i just want to wish all of you,

Selamat berpuasa..jangan ponteng puasa kecuali kepada mereka yang terpaksa tidak berpuasa..hehe

besok jumaat, people..yippie!!!

the day after tomorrow is saturday..cuti!!!!

hurray~~~~~~~

menulis tanpa motif

My brother come home today because he wanted to get his books and borrow my dad's car.

As usual, he loves to kacau me. bile balik, he silently stand besides me and me? of coursela terkejut and marah-marah sayang die..hehe..he said, bile lagi nak kacau adik? yeah, my adik call me adik. ada sejarah disebaliknya. hehe..

He just went back to melaka and before he left, as usual lagi, semua orang keluar rumah nak hantar anak/adik kesayangan sampai kereta. Orang lain dah dekat luar tunggu dia, saya baru terhegeh-hegeh nak keluar. He forgot something so he come inside and perjalanan saya tergendala kejap so berdiri kejap kat pintu. Sebelum pegi dekat kereta, die usap-usap kepala saya ala, macam ayah-ayah usap kepala anak dia kat tadika..and me? biasalah, buat-buat bising padahal suke gile sebab rasa macam kanak-kanak tadika yang disayangi..hahaha..

Actually, he did that to me sometimes and i did the same to him..only when he shaved his head lah..sebab rasa usap orang takde rambut sangat bes..rasa tajam-tajam kat tangan..hehe..yelah, bila rambut dah panjang, mana boleh kacau.dah sikat elok-elok. pacak-pacak macam dragon ball kalau kacau mesti kena marah.

okey, apakah motif cerita hari ini sebenarnya? hehe

Well, actually, i wanted to talk about his friend who went home with him. His friend, Ahad (bukan isnin ataupun selasa.hehe) once told him (dialog ikut sedap sayalah..hehe), "weh, bila aku tengok kakak kau (my elder sister) ngan mak kau macam tak sama betul ngan kau...". yelah, he expect my brother's mother and sister's style will looks like him, i mean free hair ke..modern-modern style..in short, dia cakap adik saya macam nakal-nakal type yang tak sangka ada kakak and mak baik macam tu. tapi....

jeng jeng jeng..hehe

Tapi...Ahad ni cakap lagi..,"tapi tengok kakak kau (me) lagi sorang, baru nampak persamaan sikit.." meaning? Dia cakap saya ni nakal-nakal type macam adik saya. ces ces ces..hehehe

Tak sempat nak gurau-gurau dengan ahad ni. tunggulah die datang lagi. mesti menyesal, eh tak tak, mesti gembira bertemu dengan kakak kawan die yang die kata nakal-nakal type ni. mesti dia akan tukar statement die," akak kau yang aku cakap nakal-nakal type ni sebenarnya baiklah..aku salah dulu.."

hohohoho

thinking deeply..hehe

Kadang-kadang saya terpikir..bile akan sampai waktunya saya sangat gembira nak pegi keje?

Setiap kali hari isnin akan jadi sangat excited nak pegi keje..or..setiap kali hari jumaat, akan sedih sebab cuti hari sabtu & ahad..

bile..bilela nak rasa macam tu..maybe when i'm doing something i really love kot..maybe..

now?

meneruskan rutin harian..bila hari ahad je dah sedih sebab kena keje hari isnin..bile jumaat je, gembira sebab sabtu cuti..pagi jumaat, dah siap counting hours nak habis keje. hari2 biasa? counting days nak hari jumaat..hehehehe

rasa macam nak sambung belajar..sebab bile belajar ada excuse untuk tak keje..hehe..but nak ambik apa ye?

master forensic accounting or mba?

or..

ACCA or ICSA?

hurmm...

sembunyi macam ostrich

My mood was quite swingy yesterday and i felt so damn tired after work.

before i went to bed, usually i will go to my mom's room to kacau2 her. my sister was there too. while my mother and i were talking, she was busy digging her clothes from basket with her head inside the basket.

when i look at her, her action reminds me of ostrich. ala, burung yang kepala panjang and bile nak sembunyi dari musuh die tanam kepala dalam tanah. macamla xnampak badan die yang besar tu..hehe

so, what i did is that, well it is a reflex action tau, i push her head into the basket. nak tengok sedalam mana leh pegi macam ala-ala ostrich tu..hahaha~~

well, my reflex action makes all of us laughed. mata yang sudah sepet kerana sangat mengantuk menjadi lagi sepet kerana gelak tanpa henti..hehehe..

then my mother cerita another story yang buat kami lagi rasa nak gelak berdekah-dekah..(see what i'm trying to do here, i try to write in bahasa since i 'm not good writing in bahasa, i mean formal way, bukan bahasa pasar.hehe..)..

she told us that its either me or my adik, masa kecik2 dulu bile main sembunyi2, cakap, sembunyi2 and then use bantal to cover the face. face only..badan x..hehe.. macamlah orang xnampak badan tu kalau cari.. konon2 tutp muka, kite xnampak orang, orang pon xnampak kte..macam ostrich la..hehehehe..

ok, it's 1158pm..gile la..never slept this late since i've been working for a week and 2 days..esok kena keje..haih~~

I hate when someone asked you not to do some stuff but they did it too..macam cakap tak serupa bikin. hate it.. really hate..so hopefully i wont do the same things.

i believed that when we didnt do things that annoys us to others, others wont do the same thing to us.. and what we gave we get back.. it just a matters of time..haih~~~

hectic week

Last week was the first week i start working. It was not bad for the first week..Hectic but was not bad.

First day, the senior staff handover taxation task to me..after finishing all the computation, fill in form C & R, the other senior staff handover audit job to be amend. he said, "baru 1st day dah byk keje..dah pening..haha"..ces, he laughed at me..hehe

Second day was quite boring since i didn't have task..so the secretarial manager ask me to do audit reminder. erm..boring and tiring since i have to check the secretarial file one by one and calculate the date of last filing annual return, bla, bla n bla..hehehe

I overcome things i didnt overcome when i'm practical. Usually when i'm doing out field job, i will be accompanied by staff but last wednesday i have to go to SSM by my own..quite frightening at first.

Since i have no sense of direction, of course i got lost in shah alam. Nama je budak subang tapi shah alam pon boleh sesat.besides, i'm a former student in uitm shah alam. macamnantah still xingat jalan..hehe..then, when i enter the parking lot in Plaza Alam Sentral, i got lost again..i dunno where to go. So with a big courage (cewah, courage konon), i just wondering around in PAS..finally when i reached SSM, there's one staff call me and said that he wanted to pass some document for me to bring back to office. So i feel relieved a bit..i asked him how to go to idaman counter, ctc express and whatsoever..he taught me the procedure and then he left.

When it's my turn to filing the document, there's some problem since the date is late. the company has to be compound so i call my manager. She asked me to talk slowly with the officer. So i did but still, the document cannot be processed. then, there's some document that have been adjusted to be filed again. and i have to go and see a big officer there since i need the document immediately..the officer asked me to come later after lunch. So a big relieve again, i dont have to go to idaman counter to find the company's information. fuh..lega den..hehe

After finished everthing in SSM, i need to go to KWSP to register. again, i got lost..duh..finally when i reached KWSP, the queue is quite long so what should i do other than daydreaming kan. hehe..and guess what, i miss my turn..gile sengal boleh daydreaming sampai macam tu..hehe.. then, my next destination is to make payment for my bos. again, i dont know where to go..so belasah je pusing2 rupa-rupanya kena naik tingkat 2 je..hehe

my last destination is to deposit cheque at cimb..since i dont know how to go to cimb taipan, i went to wisma consplant. again, i'm making mistake at cimb..nak deposit cheque pon boleh salah..memang sengal ari tu..hehe

after my last destination, i went back to office. terasa sangat penat.hehe..

on thursday and friday, nothing much..i still have to finished up the audit reminder and on friday, the senior staff asked me to help him in statutory audit and fill in the taxation forms..

things i like with this ofice is that, working hours started at 830 and finished at 5pm.. 5pm people..hehe..but break has been cut down to 45minutes..but i dont care..5pm is enough to make me happy..hehehe..

today is saturday..yippie~~~~~~berehat sebentar bersama kitkat.hehe

is it really true?

since i'm working right now, i will have the same routine, morning, wake up early and went to work, go back to home, stuck in traffic jam..so i usually listen to hot fm or hitz..

yesterday, their topic is about 'putus harapan'..one lady call and said that she's been dumped when she have to travel to study..she said she love her ex so much and they'd been happy before she got the offer to continue her studies..

the dj wanted to console her and said that he left him to study (dj ni salah dengar...). when she corrected him, the dj said,"saya ada satu tips untuk awak.."

"kalau nak cari bf, biar lelaki tu yang sayang awak lebih dari awak sayang die.."

dunno the meaning of what he'd said but, i've heard the exact word from my friend..she said that it is better for a man to love us (girl) more than we do at first because girl's feeling towards the man she loves could be develop but it's hard to develop a man's feeling towards the girl that loves him..

but..is it really true?

Torn between two choices

Sometimes when we keep thinking about the consequences of the decision we might make, we cant really make a right decision.

All we can do is to pray for making a right decision.

And when we are torn between two choices, what would us do? Do we choose to make decision (after praying) that give a lesser bad impact to us, choose something is risky but worth the wait or just let life led the way?

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I love advertisement. Especially advertisement that have meaning..and personally i love late Yasmin Ahmad touch in advertisement..usually petronas shows the best advertisement ever..

And i love this 1 advertisement in astro. It meant to promote their tvIQ channel. In the advertisement there's people talking about so many things including the global warming, snails..

The truth is that, i really love the sentence made by one man in the advertisement..

"Things around this world makes you wonder about life.."

True..so true..

sometimes when i'm alone for a long time..i will do a lot thinking.. basically it makes me feel empty..

i feel empty right now...

wishing to talk to someone to cheer me up..

haih haih haih....

'kool' t-shirt..

I sat all day in front of the tv and my laptop and i did not on the fan..and yeah i wore a free mentos t-shirt there's a word "kool" on my t-shirt..yela, mentos kool kn..

then my mother suddenly said, "nanti jangan pakai dah t-shirt tu.."

me, totally blur and shocked, why i shouldnt wear this t-shirt. i even looked down at my t-shirt, jarang ke t-shirt ni, since its white..

then my mother like reading my mind, "yela, t-shirt tu kool..mak berpeluh-peluh sembahyang.."

she said that because she cant on the fan since i'm 'kool'..

hehehe..a small joke like this brighten my day since i'm in a bad mood today..hehehe

Liat macam ayam..

I'm still penanam anggur terhormat and maybe not for long..uhuk uhuk.. akak from my internship place call me this morning and asked me again whether i would like to work there..the offer was quite low since i'm a fresh graduate but who am i to demand more isnt it.. i thought they already have someone to work with them since they didnt respond to me when i asked them middle of june about the job they offer me..and now, when my hopes is down and i'm applying job for different company, they offer me again..haih..dunno what to do..she ask me to work tomorrow and i told her if i want to work with them, maybe i will start next week..so maybe..my journey as penanam anggur will ends by this week..haih..

btw, last week, since i'm too bored, i made muffin..the presentation was ok but the taste..erm..not bad but a bit liat..bak kata my adik, liat die macam makan ayam..ces ces..hehe..but making muffins or cakes makes me happy despite their result..jadi x jadi belakang kire..hehehe

erm..currently in depress mood..haih..haih..

Merempit

My sister asked me whether I wanted to follow her and my mother to summit in the afternoon and my answer, "tengokla sebab ingat nak merempit petang nanti..". She is totally clueless when I said that and keep asking what do i meant by that. My mother? She and I laughed since only both of us understand what I meant.

And I'm sure that people who read this were totally blur.. Azliza dah jadi minah rempit? Bukan, bukan saya bukan minah rempit. hehehe.. Just by riding a motorcycle makes me scared like hell. I still remember when I ride with haina. I'm so quiet because I'm too scared and she said that I'm too quiet that she was afraid that I fell off the motocycle..hehehe

So, what I meant with merempit? It came out when i was watching television with my mother and I'm exercising (can u imagine i'm exercising? that shows that i'm too bored sleeping all day at home..). While I do some squating (bend my knees and put out my hands like riding a bike), my mother suddenly make some facial expression and blurt out, "Eyh, buat apa ni? Merempit pulak dia..orang suruh kemas bilik dia merempit.." and she laughed.. and of course i laughed too..hehe

When I told my sister what I meant, she laughed too. My mother and sister couldnt stop laughing so i told my mom that she should try 'merempit' and i show her how to 'merempit'.

She 'merempit', "eyh, sakit lututla, adik xsakit lutut ke?"

Me, intended to kenakan her back, "mak xminum susu selalu tu yang sakit lutut tu.."

Mom, "eyh minum apa, yang mak beli susu anlene tu..selalu minum apa.."

Me, "Bila mak start minum? Waktu mak umur berapa? (still looking for a chance to kenakan her)"

Mom, "erm....(looking for a right answer)..umur 51++..."

Me, "ha..orang start minum masa muda2.."

Mom, cutting me, "kat tin tu tulis 51++. so kenala minum masa umur 51++..bawah dari tu xle la.."

Me, of course laughing so hard.. isyh, ada je jawapan my mom.. bagus plak tu..

haih, maybe i have some other time to kenakan her balik..hehehe

She even bring the tin to show to me..hehehe..sapa ada mak macam ni? i'm so lucky to have this kind of mother..i love u mom..hehe..

So people, now you know why i'm a bit sengal..its in the gene people..hehehehe..

And writing this reminds me one situation where a friend of mine wanted to tumpang me back to kl from melaka. Since my father fetch me, she asked my mother, "saya tumpang ni muat ke makcik... (because 2 friend of mine were already in the car..)"

My mother, "takpe, kalau xmuat nanti kita ambik tali rafia ikat kat kereta....(intend to kenakan my friend kot..)" hehehe

My friend blur at first and laughed after that..

My friend told me that she didnt expect that kind of answer ans she thought my mother would just answer, muat...

hehehehe..that's my mother.. and i love her so much.. *muahsss*

yahoo? or...erm..

i'm officially no longer a student since result is out.

a big relief..

i should be happy yet i have a mix feelings.

erm..what am i going to do next in my life?

continue doing master or acca or... work?

totally clueless..

bercakap kepada dunia

I was talking with a friend of mine when suddenly i told him that i have a blog.

He asked for my url and i refused to give him and i said that i'm embarrassed if he read my blog.

So he said (or something like this), " habis tu awak tulis blog takde sapa baca ke?"

and i said that, i know people were reading it and it's ok if i dont know who reading it. I write just to get off anything in my chest.

so he said (or something like this), "kire macam tulis ni bukan untuk semua orang baca, tapi nak bercakap kepada dunia..saya, tulis ni sebab nak bercakap kepada dunia bukan orang.."

dia perli? definitely yes. hehe

so.. why am i writing this? my safe answer is, to tell or share with everyone i know about myself or anything that cross my mind, in a way that by not telling them directly. paham ke? seriously saya pon tak berapa paham.hehe