Being at home without my parents and husband do give some impact to me.
I like to day-dreaming and i think it become worst.
I started to look back at my life.
The first day i went to Tadika..
The last day of Tadika..
The first day i went to primary school..
The moment i keep being punished to stand on the chair for 1 period by my teacher because i make noise..
The moment i took UPSR..
The moment when upsr's result went out..
The moment when i went to secondary school to register by myself..
Everyone were taking their parents to the school to register or they were in a group of their friends to register but i all by myself because all my close friends in primary school went to other school and i, at that time were embarassed to bring parents along since, yelah dah form 1 ok.
Takkan nak bawak parents datang teman register. Plus, bak kata mak saya, jarak rumah saya dengan sekolah ni, macam kentut kat rumah tak habis bau lagi, dah sampai sekolah. haha..
And i still remember the moment when people dislikes me at started to talk behind me..
the moment i met some wonderful friends..
PMR moment.. the results..
SPM moment..the time i started to think what i want to do in life..
SPM results..
The journey after that..
Diploma moments..
After diploma moments..
A year of doing nothing..
Degree moments..
The first day i met my husband.. (at that moment we're not even a couple)
The moment i spent with him..
The first day of working..
The up and down of working..
The first day i met his family..
the merisik day..
the engagement day..
All discussion i had with him..
The solemnization day..
The day i become his wife..
The day he had to go to work two weeks after our marriage...
the moment i went to kk just to meet him..
Haih..
The moment.. The memories..
The stories beneath us
We are all walking novel..
Right?
Friday, November 26, 2010
Boleh ke kita sayang orang lain lebih dari diri sendiri?
Whatever the answer be, i am very grateful to Allah for giving me this feelings..
Now i know why I didnt get to feel what i felt right now when i'm still young, when i'm still studying..
This is because...
Allah wants me to feel it right now, feels the unconditional love that cannot be describe by words..
Whatever the answer be, i am very grateful to Allah for giving me this feelings..
Now i know why I didnt get to feel what i felt right now when i'm still young, when i'm still studying..
This is because...
Allah wants me to feel it right now, feels the unconditional love that cannot be describe by words..
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Sharing is caring ;)
Just to share and remind myself.. (^_^)
Surah Al-Baqarah Ayat 216 :
“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.”
Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286.
"Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya. Ia mendapat pahala (dari kebajikan) yang diusahakannya dan ia mendapat siksa (dari kejahatan) yang dikerjakannya. (Mereka berdoa): "Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau hukum kami jika kami lupa atau kami tersalah. Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada kami beban yang berat sebagaimana Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang sebelum kami. Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang tak sanggup kami memikulnya. Beri ma'aflah kami; ampunilah kami; dan rahmatilah kami. Engkaulah Penolong kami, maka tolonglah kami terhadap kaum yang kafir."
Kadang-kadang saya selalu mengeluh kalau ada benda yang kita plan tak jadi. Saya lupa yang ada benda yang kita tak suka kadang-kadang baik untuk kita, benda yang kita suka, tak baik untuk kita.
Kadang-kadang bila ada ujian saya selalu sedih dan mengeluh tapi saya terlupa yang Allah SWT takkan uji kita something yang kita takleh handle.. Astagfirrallahalazim... chayo2.. if i can do it, u can do it to (tiba-tiba je bagi semangat kat diri sendiri..hehe)
Thursday, November 18, 2010
lonely
Did you ever feel lonely eventhough you're surrounded by so many people around you?
i had feel that emotion.
but today, this particularly moment,
i feel so lonely..
literally..
my husband is at work..
my parents were at mekah..
my sister went out with her friend..
my brother is off for holiday at melaka..
so literally i am alone and no one to talk to..
usually i make myself busy and i do have a lot of things to be done..
but this feeling makes me feel so tired and lazy and no mood..
haih..damn, i feel lonely...
haih haih haih..
i had feel that emotion.
but today, this particularly moment,
i feel so lonely..
literally..
my husband is at work..
my parents were at mekah..
my sister went out with her friend..
my brother is off for holiday at melaka..
so literally i am alone and no one to talk to..
usually i make myself busy and i do have a lot of things to be done..
but this feeling makes me feel so tired and lazy and no mood..
haih..damn, i feel lonely...
haih haih haih..
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Today, some idiot send message to my dad's phone claiming he's my dad.
He makes all of us quite panic especially my sister. I am panic but i have to be calm and control my emotion.
He's using overseas number which makes us wondering what happen to our dad and whether that message is true.
His message was something like this,
"Ini ayah, ayah sekarang tukar no. tolong tambahkan credit di no 0178xxxxxx 30rm. Ayah ada masalah dan kini berada di balai polis. tolong, butuh sgera"
Ok, the first time i read the message, i dont believe that it was from my father because of the language and the way he text us. i recognize words using by my dad if he message us.
But of course, we are worried sick and my sister tried to call that number that being given but he/she didnt pick up. I called the person who send us the message and he reject my call.
The first word come out from my mouth when my sister show me the message was, "ni bukan message ayah sebab kalau ayah, ayah takkan gune word-word ni and cara pon lain. ni macam indon je. cuba message mak, tanya mak dulu"
my sister text my mother and she looked very panicked and wanted to call our aunty. I asked her to wait until our mother replied first.
I am panic myself and i started to think bad stuff like someone snatch my dad's phone and whatsoever but i keep it to myself.
Then i try to call that number again and he still reject my call. Coward.
I ask my sister whether our mom had reply the text or not and she said no. And then she was writing again the message and try to send it using other number only this time she said it outloud what she was writing.
And i might has scold her a little bit. Hehe kena mintak maaf. She asked whether everything is okay and asked whether our dad were at police station.
I scold her why she mention about police station. What if our mother were not around our dad. It might make our mother worried.
But to be honest i cant blame her as she's worried about our parents and couldnt think straight and of course she cried as worried to much.
So i just sit down and i recite many doa just make me calm and asking for their safety.
Suddenly, our dad call my sister using the number he gave us.
Alhamdullillah everything was fine. The person who message us is just a scam. Seriously if i have that person in front of us, i dont know what exactly will happen to him to makes us worried that much.
Nak tipu pon mintak credit rm 30? hello..buat orang risau je...haih sometimes i didnt get why some people were like this. Nak duit, gi cari kerjalah..
haih stupidity of human being..
He makes all of us quite panic especially my sister. I am panic but i have to be calm and control my emotion.
He's using overseas number which makes us wondering what happen to our dad and whether that message is true.
His message was something like this,
"Ini ayah, ayah sekarang tukar no. tolong tambahkan credit di no 0178xxxxxx 30rm. Ayah ada masalah dan kini berada di balai polis. tolong, butuh sgera"
Ok, the first time i read the message, i dont believe that it was from my father because of the language and the way he text us. i recognize words using by my dad if he message us.
But of course, we are worried sick and my sister tried to call that number that being given but he/she didnt pick up. I called the person who send us the message and he reject my call.
The first word come out from my mouth when my sister show me the message was, "ni bukan message ayah sebab kalau ayah, ayah takkan gune word-word ni and cara pon lain. ni macam indon je. cuba message mak, tanya mak dulu"
my sister text my mother and she looked very panicked and wanted to call our aunty. I asked her to wait until our mother replied first.
I am panic myself and i started to think bad stuff like someone snatch my dad's phone and whatsoever but i keep it to myself.
Then i try to call that number again and he still reject my call. Coward.
I ask my sister whether our mom had reply the text or not and she said no. And then she was writing again the message and try to send it using other number only this time she said it outloud what she was writing.
And i might has scold her a little bit. Hehe kena mintak maaf. She asked whether everything is okay and asked whether our dad were at police station.
I scold her why she mention about police station. What if our mother were not around our dad. It might make our mother worried.
But to be honest i cant blame her as she's worried about our parents and couldnt think straight and of course she cried as worried to much.
So i just sit down and i recite many doa just make me calm and asking for their safety.
Suddenly, our dad call my sister using the number he gave us.
Alhamdullillah everything was fine. The person who message us is just a scam. Seriously if i have that person in front of us, i dont know what exactly will happen to him to makes us worried that much.
Nak tipu pon mintak credit rm 30? hello..buat orang risau je...haih sometimes i didnt get why some people were like this. Nak duit, gi cari kerjalah..
haih stupidity of human being..
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Saya dah tua..eyh tak tak..hehe
I went to find wedding presents for my friends and I asked one of the closest friends of mine, Niza to accompany me. Ok, we haven’t met each other since I get married. We talked with each other like we haven’t met like a year.
Turn out that we sent our parents (in her case, her mother) to perform their haj at the same time but we didn’t bump into each other since I went home earlier. We share experience of not having parents around. About how we have to take the responsibilities that our parents usually do.
And the only different between us is that she has to go to her mother office to cover her mother’s job and went she went home she has to cook. Listen to her makes me realize that we certainly have grew up as we take responsibilities that we have encounter with.
Okay, mesti ada yang rasa, ‘helo, dah 25 baru nak belajar semua2 ni ke?’. Saya tak kisah pon sebab memang betul. Saya yang malas nak belajar. Mak bebel2 banyak kali pon saya malas jugak. So it was my fault. But seriously rasa macam diri ni maju sikit walaupon sebenarnya dah ketinggalan jauh dari rakan-rakan seumur saya yang pandai masak, uruskan rumah dah lama dah, dari sekolah lagi.
Takpelah, orang cakap biar lambat asal selamat. Atau biar jadi macam sang kura-kura yang lambat jauh ke belakang masa berlumba lari dengan sang arnab tapi sampai dulu dan menang perlumbaan tu. Haa..kan saya da berperibahasa..Haha.. By the way, her mother will be back as the same date with my parents.
The issue here? Hehe nothing special but I realize one thing. I’m getting older. We are getting older. We started to find gifts for our friends, not birthday present as always but WEDDING gifts. Most of friends at my age are getting engaged or married or even having a baby. Oh my god,oh my god, ok salah, suami saya marah saya cakap macam ni. So tukar Ya Allah Ya Allah Ya Allah..gile da tua ke aku ni?
After found the gifts, we don’t know where to go so as usual we went to a place where we love and sooth us, MPH. hehe.. Okay we usually will go thru the rack and find interesting books. But this time, we walked slowly and stop and one corner where they sells old cds and books at the best price. Our hand were touching the books but we were talking with each other about recipes. She said that we were like surirumah pulak sebab cakap pasal recipe. She told me she cooked this and that and I asked for recipes. Likewise, I told her I’ve cooked this and that and give her the recipe that I got from the internet. The power of the world. Haha gila poyo ok.
Then we decided to go to lepak minum-minum instead of wandering around. We were babbling around while in the line to place an order and I told her that my attitude doesn’t reflect that I’m married. I’m still childish like I used to be. And she agreed. Haha..
She said that she looks at me like I’m still single because of the way I talked, and the clumsiness is still with me. So I don’t look like a man’s wife. Orang dah kahwin ni kan perwatakan dia macam matang-matang sikit. But I’m still the old me. While chatting around I drop the straw and it shows that I’m clumsy. Haha..
Niza told me that she cant believed that I’m married and she said that people might have the same thought. She also said that when I walked with my husband and we were holding hands , people might look strangely at us and in their mind, they said,’ apalah couple ni, jalan pegang-pegang, peluk-peluk..’. haha..
Sebab kami nampak macam pasangan bercinta bukan suami isteri sebab gaya kami tak macam matang. Ok saya terima.. Kena garangkan muka and, jangan asyik gelak-gelak je and tak buat aksi-aksi macam budak-budak and tak boleh jadi clumsy lagi.. Ok sekarang, garangkan diri baru nampak macam isteri orang.. Grrrrr… garang tak? Hahaha.. Ops tergelak pulak..Erm takpelah gelak tu kan bagus untuk kesihatan ;p
Turn out that we sent our parents (in her case, her mother) to perform their haj at the same time but we didn’t bump into each other since I went home earlier. We share experience of not having parents around. About how we have to take the responsibilities that our parents usually do.
And the only different between us is that she has to go to her mother office to cover her mother’s job and went she went home she has to cook. Listen to her makes me realize that we certainly have grew up as we take responsibilities that we have encounter with.
Okay, mesti ada yang rasa, ‘helo, dah 25 baru nak belajar semua2 ni ke?’. Saya tak kisah pon sebab memang betul. Saya yang malas nak belajar. Mak bebel2 banyak kali pon saya malas jugak. So it was my fault. But seriously rasa macam diri ni maju sikit walaupon sebenarnya dah ketinggalan jauh dari rakan-rakan seumur saya yang pandai masak, uruskan rumah dah lama dah, dari sekolah lagi.
Takpelah, orang cakap biar lambat asal selamat. Atau biar jadi macam sang kura-kura yang lambat jauh ke belakang masa berlumba lari dengan sang arnab tapi sampai dulu dan menang perlumbaan tu. Haa..kan saya da berperibahasa..Haha.. By the way, her mother will be back as the same date with my parents.
The issue here? Hehe nothing special but I realize one thing. I’m getting older. We are getting older. We started to find gifts for our friends, not birthday present as always but WEDDING gifts. Most of friends at my age are getting engaged or married or even having a baby. Oh my god,oh my god, ok salah, suami saya marah saya cakap macam ni. So tukar Ya Allah Ya Allah Ya Allah..gile da tua ke aku ni?
After found the gifts, we don’t know where to go so as usual we went to a place where we love and sooth us, MPH. hehe.. Okay we usually will go thru the rack and find interesting books. But this time, we walked slowly and stop and one corner where they sells old cds and books at the best price. Our hand were touching the books but we were talking with each other about recipes. She said that we were like surirumah pulak sebab cakap pasal recipe. She told me she cooked this and that and I asked for recipes. Likewise, I told her I’ve cooked this and that and give her the recipe that I got from the internet. The power of the world. Haha gila poyo ok.
Then we decided to go to lepak minum-minum instead of wandering around. We were babbling around while in the line to place an order and I told her that my attitude doesn’t reflect that I’m married. I’m still childish like I used to be. And she agreed. Haha..
She said that she looks at me like I’m still single because of the way I talked, and the clumsiness is still with me. So I don’t look like a man’s wife. Orang dah kahwin ni kan perwatakan dia macam matang-matang sikit. But I’m still the old me. While chatting around I drop the straw and it shows that I’m clumsy. Haha..
Niza told me that she cant believed that I’m married and she said that people might have the same thought. She also said that when I walked with my husband and we were holding hands , people might look strangely at us and in their mind, they said,’ apalah couple ni, jalan pegang-pegang, peluk-peluk..’. haha..
Sebab kami nampak macam pasangan bercinta bukan suami isteri sebab gaya kami tak macam matang. Ok saya terima.. Kena garangkan muka and, jangan asyik gelak-gelak je and tak buat aksi-aksi macam budak-budak and tak boleh jadi clumsy lagi.. Ok sekarang, garangkan diri baru nampak macam isteri orang.. Grrrrr… garang tak? Hahaha.. Ops tergelak pulak..Erm takpelah gelak tu kan bagus untuk kesihatan ;p
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